Solo Shopping

It’s the little things that most people take for granted. Walking through a cereal isle without having to deny multiple tiny whiners whatever cartoon sugar ball concoction catches their eyes? That’s a tiny piece of heaven in my opinion. Today I strolled through every isle in the store without kids. I read labels without glancing away to make sure my kids weren’t eating the fruit snacks right from a box that we would now have to purchase. I checked out without my 8 month old having a meltdown.

Resolution day 3, grocery shopping without the kids.

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What’s a Nap?

Last night was rough! My 8 month old eczema ridden baby had a reaction to God only knows what and became an itch monster. He was miserable all night. This, unfortunately, happens very often. As a matter of fact there is seldom a night that goes by where my baby rests easy. I honestly can’t remember the last time. To comfort him I cradle him to my chest while holding his free arm down to keep him from scratching. This is the only place he sleeps soundly, in my arms. I’m getting pretty good at propping myself up and snoozing in that position as I cradle him. I say snoozing because it’s not really sleep but rather a halfway point between sleeping and awake. Needless to say I’m exhausted.

I decided to pile the kids in the car and head to my mom’s (Granny) for a bit to get the kids out and give my mind a break. After nursing the baby she lead me to her room and gave me an eye mask and earplugs. “Take a nap! I have the kids.” Nap? What is this “nap” you speak of?

Now, I’m a semi OCD control freak. I can’t shut my mind off until the appropriate time and lately that’s after the older 2 go to bed and the baby starts itchy fussing. This is just that new baby stage of no rest, but I can’t say no to Mama when she has that tone. I also remembered my resolution and decided to give in. Even if I watch a movie on my phone I’m resting without kids so hey! Why not? Into her bed I crawled and began looking at Facebook. That’s the last thing I remember. An hour and 15 minutes later I woke up, more rested and renewed than I’ve been in awhile. So there it is! New Year’s resolution day 2! I took a nap!! (Cue the fireworks and confetti!)

It’s Not Selfish

Today is New Year’s Day! I have never been one to make resolutions for the new year. It’s just never interested me. Why make promises that you can’t keep?

So here I am, glaring at the starting line for 2017, and deciding to take a stab at it! As I look around at my life and assess everything I have, am, and do I have decided that I need to make a promise to myself. Not to lose weight, or give more, or be more positive. Those are all great but the thing that I want to do, the thing I want to consciously remember to do each day is simple. I resolve to take care of myself. I want to take some time each day to do something for me.img_2773I find that I am so much better at following through with goals if I have a place to hold myself accountable so I decided to blog each day of 2017. I’ll post what I’ve done that day for me. Big or small, it will be here.

So today, January 1, 2017, I will take an extra hot, extra long bath. I won’t have an 8 month old in my lap. I won’t race through with an anxious sense of urgency. I will shave my beastly legs and use a damn loofa with something soapy. I will breath deep the steam of solitude and force myself into a relaxed state. I will watch a bit of something entirely inappropriate for kids on my phone. I may even make my husband deliver me a sissy wine cooler. Yes, this is Day 1 of my New Year’s resolution.

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Jamaican me happy indeed!

An Encouraging Word for Moms

Hey moms! Do you ever wonder why you do the things you do when absolutely nobody seems to notice? As you wash the bed linens and blankets for your husband and children do you ever wonder why you even bother? Or when you clean the windows or dust the picture frames, does it bug you that no one stops and says, “Wow! Those windows look wonderful! Thank you!”?

Every once in a blue moon I find myself pondering this. Now I know that eventually it would be very noticeable if these tasks weren’t completed. The beds would become nasty and stink from night after night of sleeping and drooling. The windows would become so filthy that the beautiful morning sun would have to fight to shine through. Those picture frames would eventually get a thick layer of dust on them, clouding the gorgeous smiling faces of that family you love so much. That family that doesn’t seem to see all you do. So, we may ask ourselves why we even bother? Let me tell you what I think of when these pitiful thoughts start to creep into my mind.

“So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.” – Matthew 6:2-4

Now I know these scriptures are typically interpreted as giving money to the needy, but I see “giving to the needy” differently. You don’t have to be poor or homeless to be “needy”. All of us are needy in some way. My family and my children are needy. I don’t mean this in a negative sense but rather in a literal one. They “need” me to do these tasks. My children are 1 and 3 years old. They certainly can’t be expected to wash linens and windows and while my husband is more than capable, he works very long, hard hours outside the home. I’m blessed to work right here in the midst of my babies every single day. He needs me to take on these daily, weekly or monthly tasks in order to allow him time to rest his body and mind. I know that may seem sexist to many, but it’s my joy to serve them all! It’s what I desired, prayed for and received by my gracious God. Also, it helps that my husband never says no to any of my requests for time away, whether it be an hour long bath (which I take nightly) or a night out with friends. He’s wonderful and I treasure him as he does me.

Then there’s the other thought. If these things actually did go undone it might be that I’m not there to do them. Maybe I’m physically unable, ill or worse, dead. Sure my family would finally notice but it’d be for the wrong reasons. The sadness and pain that would accompany their new found revelation of how much I truly did would be devastating. I can’t imagine them having to deal with the loss of a wife or mother. Having the guilt of finally knowing all I had done and not being able to show gratitude or appreciation. I don’t want them to feel those terrible feelings. I hope they never do!

This is why I complete my tasks joyfully and with a smile on my face (Most of the time. I am human!). They may not notice but I know the One who does and I know I will receive a reward for my loving servitude to those who need me regardless of whether they notice or not.

So next time you’re wondering who sees, who notices, just remember Matthew 6: 2-4. He sees, He notices and He will reward you for your service in heaven! Also, never forget how much your family loves you and be grateful that they need you so! It’s a wonderful gift to be needed! It means you have or do something that is valuable! Take pride in all you do and know that it’s seen!

Chaos

I took a nice long break from blogging because life got a little too chaotic. I had to make a choice to eliminate some things in order to maintain a healthy level of sanity. So, what has changed since I blogged regularly? Well, let me catch you up!

In June 2015 I had begun researching “natural family planning” in an attempt to rid myself of birth control. We certainly didn’t want more children and I had grown to dispise birth control. It looked so fool proof! Tracking my ovulation, counting days, taking temperatures. I got this! After discussing with the hubby I began this natural method in July 2015. In August I became pregnant.

Obviously I overestimated my ability to track my junk. I basically lost it. Tears, self pity, and random bouts of hyperventilating filled the next few months. I know children are a blessing but they’re also really hard man! I knew what was coming. The body changes, the exhaustion, the sacrifices. My kids had just begun sleeping through the night. I was free of breastfeeding and my body was my own again. I was regaining my sense of self and working out regularly. I knew a baby would change all of that. Well, I was right! After the most painful and complication filled high risk pregnancy I have ever had I naturally birthed my third child, another boy.

He really was perfect and I began believing that God was answering my request for a very easy baby until he was about 3 months old. All of a sudden I had a miserable baby. He was so uncomfortable and itched all over. His adorable body broke out in head to toe eczema and he was just so unhappy. In response I have eliminated dairy and eggs from my diet, rid our home of his soft toys, switched all fabrics to cotton, and detergents to natural.  It seems to help but we have an appointment with an allergist soon to hopefully determine the cause. Half of babies outgrow it so we’re praying to be in that category.

I have trusted God from the day I got a positive pee stick and boy was He right! Even though this fat baby boy is by far my most challenging, I wouldn’t give it up for anything. He is spectacular! Gorgeous! Another creative masterpiece complements of my entire amazing body and a teeny tiny sperm from my hubby. Yes, that’s all the credit I’m giving him because I did it all. ;p

In the midst of the sleepless haze of the past 7 months I have closed my cloth diaper business and put my tax preparation business on hold. There was just no time to focus on them. I know I’ll get back into it once the dust settles and I feel it approaching on a very distant horizon.

Overall I just trust God and His plans for us. I’m hanging in there and doing my best to raise these incredible gifts that He has blessed me with. Life isn’t easy and doesn’t follow my perfectly laid out plans but it’s good people. It’s just so good.

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More to come soon!!

 

Natural Deodorant Update Two Years Later

It’s been about two years since I decided to review a handful of natural deodorants.

I thought I might do a quick update to let everyone know how it’s going. Well, I’m about half on and half off. After I quit breastfeeding my son at 2 years old I had a crazy time trying to get my hormones back to some steady level. I continued to perspire like a teenager and ended up looking pretty depressed as the only color of shirt I could wear was black in order to disguise the armpit stains. While I still love and use my Truly’s Natural Deodorant, which ended up being my absolute favorite out of all that I tested, I ultimately ended up needing an actual antiperspirant to combat my crazy pits! On days that I’m just at home I use my Truly’s, but on days where I leave the house I’m back to Secret Clinical Strength. It’s the only thing that works for me.

Initially I was really bummed and kind of felt like I had failed my little challenge but now I realize that we all have different issues in life when it comes to our crazy body chemistry and we need to address them in the best way we can in order to go through our daily lives without obsessing. I’m happy to wear colors again and express myself through fashion more. I’m not as anxious or depressed and have more confidence. So ya, half and half is where I sit. It’s better than nothing!

Do what works best for you and your body!

Let’s Kick Things Off With A Thirsties Duo Giveaway!

I’m going to make a pretty strong effort to get back into blogging again! I miss writing and I miss doing reviews and giveaways. So, to kick things off I thought I’d giveaway 2 Thirsties Duo Wraps in “Black Bird” (trees) and Scottish Storm (argyle) prints as well as a pack of Stay Dry Duo Inserts!

1438873317thirstiesduowraphlblackbirdThese wraps, or covers, are a size two. That means they’ll fit a baby from approximately 18-40lbs.

They giveaway is open to the US and Canada only and will end on 8/31/2015.

I was in no way compensated for this post.

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